I thought you were supposed to hold me when I cried.. not walk off and leave me alone.
I hate all the empty promises you give me.
You say you love me, and then just laugh when I'm a mess.
You spend all this money trying to "help" me but you wont even talk to me when I need you more than anyone.

 I want to be able to say I hate you, but I know it's selfish to say things like that.
I wish you realised words hurt more than anything.
I don't just want to be your mistake. And I will never forget the day you told me I was one.

My best friend.

Is beautiful., funny, smart, talented, loving, nice & AMAZING.

and it hurts me when she puts herself down, and truly doesn't believe anything I say about how amazing she is.

I just want her to know how beautiful she is, and that soo many people agree with me.

7 Things.

You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy

crystal castles

You don't throw stones if you live in glass houses.

This site is a bit of a distraction.

You're ruining me.

The one person who holds my existance together is crying.

I don't know what to do. 

She keeps telling me "we're going to be just fine"

but we both know thats a lie.

Admitting that would signal our world is truly crashing down, and neither of us want to admit that just yet.

I guess the end is coming but no one knows when it's going to hit.

I just want to break down.

 I am breaking down.

Sorry in advance.

An open letter to society.

People are extremely selfish.

I hate when people say they would disown you if you did something they don't approve of. (and no it wasn't a joke) It's my life and real friends would never turn their backs on you. But maybe my idea of the word "friendship" is extremely unrealistic and outdated.

I don't think it's fair that I play the role of giving advice and offering kind words when others wont do the same for me, infact it pisses me off a fair bit. 

This is exactly why I will no longer confide in  some people

. Especially considering the fact I at least made an attempt to make you feel better.

I'm not saying I don't trust people, I just realised people don't understand me at all. And I guess that's not that bad, I mean I'm happy with how I am. But sometimes I wonder if I truly fit in with you, and that really upsets me. Like really really really upsets me.

emo whinge over.

A year without rain

One day without you is like a year without rain.

Thankyou dearest chlo chlo who linked me this girl ages ago, she does some pretty amazing covers c:

And her voice is about a million times better than Selena Gomez's in the original :3

omg.

This is the worst feeling ever.
I want someone to tell me what to do, but no one can.
I feel so lost, so scared and so small.
Whatever I do, I'm going to get hurt.
I'm going to cry. I'm going to feel like shit.
I don't want this, why cant things be simple, beautiful and carefree?
I hate this.

confusion.

I hate how this is.
I hate that you look at me with knowing eyes.
I hate you know exactly what I'm thinking. ALL THE TIME.
The saying beautiful disaster is sooo relevant to you.
You're a mess, but you're amazing. - you just act like you're okay.
I'm jealous.

Not that I could, or that I would..let it bud under my skin.

I miss you.

There are few songs that make me cry, and although I'm not the avid My Chemical Romance fan that I once was; the song Cancer is possibly the most touching and saddening song of all time.
Having seen someone very close to me go through this horrorfying ordeal and loose the fight has just made the lyrics so much more real.
I miss you.

Cherry Darling

Where the heck is my leg?

Shes kickass, gorgeous and has a machine gun for a leg, quite possibly the best thing ever.


"Names Cherry Darling"
"sound like a stripper name"
"No, it sounds like a go-go dancer name. There's a difference"

Deathproof.

Pam: [talking about Mike's car] Are you sure it's safe?

Stuntman Mike: It's better than safe. It's death proof.

"Hey, Pam, remember when I said this car was death proof? Well, that wasn't a lie. This car is 100% death proof. Only to get the benefit of it, honey, you REALLY need to be sitting in my seat."

Well Stuntman Mike, even you aren't deathproof, you just happen to be a psychotic murderous maniac who gets off killing young women with his car...
Paybacks a bitch.

A year ago...

for c.low ;)

There's something you don't know i've walked you off to keep you on your toes.
There's something you didn't know, i've grown some bones, so i can walk you off.


Tonight, tonight, everythings alright, tonight.


If i were in your shoes i'd run a thousand miles just to tell you.
If i were in your room, using just my eyes i would tell you.


There's something you didn't know you've got your teeth in me and it hurts.
And i'm a lie away from saying what i really think, this is the bottom of the bottle saying swim or sink and you don't even need me now.


Tonight, tonight, everythings alright, tonight.


If i were in your shoes i'd run a thousand miles just to tell you.
If i were in your room, using just my eyes i would tell you



I'm sorry.

chit chat.

Coco before Chanel will always be an amazing movie.

The doctor says.

The doctor says that I'm dehydrated, run down and stressed.
Hah. I can't even keep food down at the moment;
I hate being sick.

But this boy is incredible. ;)

My pumpkin friend.

Today was both the best and worst day ever.
It was amazing when my dad walked through the door with a massive pumpkin, I was so thrilled, I ALWAYS WANTED A PUMPKIN!!!
I don't even know why, but they're so weird and awesome at the same time...
Anyway, I was extremely enthused by the pumpkins arrival and decided it was going to be my new pet. Mr. Pumpkin<3
So as I was dancing around singing some tune about my new pumpkin friend, my dad had reached into the drawer and pulled out the vegetable knife, and to my sheer horror HE SLICED OFF MR PUMPKINS HEAD.
So it turns out we're having pumpkin soup tonight...

R.I.P. Mr. Pumpkin. :(

Someone I love

Ever fallen in love with someone you shouldn't of fallen in love with?
It's probably not love, but there is definately someone in your life that makes life alot harder at times and yet you still let them back in. That sucks.

For we're nocturnal bitch3z ;)

Just a little song that is oh-so amazing!
This one is going on the soundtrack to my life3
(I strongly suggest you give it a listen)

Bring night bring the night on!


In addition to this fantablistical song, I would just like to make note of another of my favourite current musicians. The powerhouse that is Taylor Momsen. Momsen's band The Pretty Reckless are much more than a teenage side-project. Many people were highly sceptical of Momsen's musical abilities prior to hearing her unique voice. This bias was based purely on the idea that she was just another teen soap star who thought she could sing. Momsen proved everyone wrong when her voice was heard, and aside from her ghastly eye makeup and often overly risque clothing options Momsen has the qualities required to become ledgendary.
So, love her or hate her, you cannot deny she is talented.

OH FCUK

A startling crash sounded through the household closely followed by "Ohhhhh fuck". Startled I made my way to the scene of the incident, blood splattered the pale contrast of the walls causing me to heave in a deep breath. He emerged from the hallway with a crimson coloured hand dripping onto the hardwood floors... "wait.. is that pasta sauce?" It appeared as though the magnificent one (also known as sean) had tripped causing his leggos pasta meal to go flying at the wall, as you can imagine many lulz were induced. Instead of initially helping him clean up I decided to search for my camera so I could take evidence of this phenomenal event.
*slow claps*

Day dream...

Wow so many random posts today... but ughhh so much buzzing around in my head right now, I even wrote this song which I admit is extremely odd, but hey what else could be expected from me? So along with my post about random things I love, I missed out two key factors of my love section, although no one can beat gar's obsession with zombies (he will always be my favourite) but some people do come close... such as the lyrical mastermind and overall hearthrob that is of course John O'Callaghan or better refferred to as "John ohh" for lack of a better description he is certainly easy on the eyes... but it appears he also has an added insight that many musicians are missing, I found this out as I was randomly stalking... I mean observing images of him.

So It appears as though he is quite the wise one, brains and good looks, in the infamous words of borat niiiiiiiiice.


On another note, as I was glancing around my room this afternoon my eyes landed on the face of no other than Merrick arguably one of the most dashing men this side of the universe... I mean the fact he makes eating a banana look this good is just proof he was sent from the heavens in order to steal the hearts of girls across the world...

OMNOMNOMNOMNOM

I love unicorns!

So I love unicorns, I always make reference to them and although it is rather random they take me back to the days of running around the backyard pretending I were on an adventure, using the garden rake as my unicorn friend.. yes I was one cool kid.
I love unicorn, BUT I also love random things such as...


This cupcake:

(isn't this just so cute!!)

This postsecret. Oh yes.


...And this one

AHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Betty Page.


This work of art ;)


This boy:

oh yes I'll go to zombie prom with you.


you're pretty.

calm.

Sometimes I can't breathe.
I wish I could be calm, and this panic would just leave me.
I wish I could submerge myself underwater
and when I came up for air all my worries would be gone.

Golly.

I get nervous when you're near me.
You make my heartbeat a million times faster.

I like it.