Thursday, January 13, 2011


I hate how we used to be "friends" and now it's really clear you just try to weasle into all the other groups and don't even talk to the people who stood by you through all your hard times. 
Well you know what? If thats how you're going be then don't even bother with me. You already crossed the line, broke a promise, a secret that should never have been told and yet I was still there. It's not like I ever did anything to you, but hearing how you called numerous other people  prior to asking me if I wanted to chill hurt. It's nice to know someone I considered a friend thinks of me so lowly. Next time I wont be the girl to say yes, you can find someone else. 
And maybe when you work out how much you've hurt me in the last few months, you'll actually try to be a better person. Although I am massively doubting you even noticed. 

Have fun being a gossip, hope that gets you far...



  1. Squirrels like acorns and NUTS >=D

  2. You think i'm happy? You think i'm proud? You think I give a flying fuck about groups or status? You think I didn't want to talk to you and continue to help you through the bad times like you did me? You think I haven't woken up everyday wanting to call you but have been too afraid to? and most of all, you think I haven't noticed? I crossed the line and i'm too ashamed and scared to move or call in your direction. I'm afraid that If I say or do the wrong thing again I will lose you forever. I'm skating on thin ice that has broken through. I know how much I hurt you and like in that text message I sent on that night I meant that 'I would spend the rest of my life trying to make it up to you' However, I don't know where to start. No material item can mend the trust I have broken. You were the light that guided me, that kept me going, and I fear that I have doused you. There is nothing I can say or do. What I did was unforgivable and I don't ever expect you to forgive me. I wouldn't, and I don't forgive my self. I love you Elissa, and I will be here always, by your side, even if you don't want me there. I will wait 'til you do, 'til you want me to stay in Adelaide and come talk to you until 4am again. Words cannot comprehend how sorry I am and how much I miss you. You were my closest friend and I pushed you away with the biggest mistake of my life. Losing you would be like losing myself.