Beans.

I know that whatever I write is going to feel stupid later, Iv'e backspaced this about 10 times already - changing my mind about what I really want to say, so fuck it here goes nothing...


I've become too attached, I see that now. 
I didn't think of it as a bad thing until those words were mentioned
"moving too fast"
But now I can see how fragile I've become, and I hate it.
I'm so used to distancing myself from people when I feel at risk, but now...I am fucked.
I can't run away, I can't hide. I have to face myself. and I have to face this
Whatever this is.


fuck.